At times things get so difficult.
Rather it's music, video, writing or just flat out life.
What's funny, in the moment of doing something I only think people will like,
I'm so. . eager and destined and determined.
However, after it is done. . . all of that dies almost instantly.
Its a bad habit of mine.
It's like I'm not doing GOOD enough.
Which I don't believe I am just yet.
This has been a battle of mine for the longest time.
Today I even find it hard to play a note on the piano.
I find it hard to even come up with a melody.
I find it hard to even come up with a beat of drum. . .
It all becomes immediately dry for a moment.
I always think what can I do to better myself.
What can I do to empower myself.
No one is going to fix this but myself.
I just want to make it quite clear that...
I get lonely too.
I get discouraged too.
I belittle myself too.
I cry too...
The point is..if you get up after all that. . you're a born winner.
